Rachel MB

I could follow you and search the rubble
Or stay right here and save myself some trouble
Or try to keep myself from seeing double
Or I could make a killing 

• The feeling I get whenever I think of you has changed again, and it seems this is the closest I can get to replicating it. This was my favorite song for a long time, and seeing as how you managed to embed the thought of you into my, Lover, You Should’ve Come Over, well, I suppose it’s only fitting that I carefully place you into this one. Over the past year I’ve learned to come to terms with the fatal tone that’s constantly circling us. Being completely honest with myself, I can say that when I close my eyes and look within, I don’t see you. And love, lust or whatever this complicated emotion I feel, isn’t enough to change that. However, tagging alongside that certainty, is fear that I may never be with someone who has the capacity to see me so clearly. When I finally accepted the fatality of us; I cried. Truth is, I didn’t think you were worthy of my tears before, but now I can see that you are. Because of you I feel free, as though I’m driving with the windows down, listening to my favorite music as I head on to an unknown destination with infinite sunsets and sunrises. See, I was looking for someone who would fit comfortably in the driver seat while I sat smiling on the passenger side. But when you fell into my dream and shifted my dot on the map, I understood that was never meant to be my destiny. Now I know, that when the time is right, I’ll find the person meant to equally share every part of me without fear or hesitation. But just so you know, when our time together does finally play out, I’ll still miss you from time to time, and I will always, always be grateful for having met you.